Rebuilding

Today’s Daily Prompt says, “We all know someone who could use a pep talk… so write them one!”

I thought about any number of pep talks I could write: for my friend who is on the verge of becoming a mother, for my friend who is in a difficult situation at work, for my friend who is struggling to help someone close confront an addiction. But when I opened up WordPress to craft this post, a new post from a blog I have been following popped up, and I knew who the recipient of my “pep talk” had to be. So Matt, this is for you, and for anyone else reading this who is navigating the murky and tumultuous waters of divorce.

ruins 3To borrow a phrase from another universe of famous social media pep talks: It gets better.

There is such a thing a “normal” life after divorce. But it will take longer than you think. Longer than you want. Longer than you might hope. But you will get there.

The journey will not be smooth.

You will hear things you wish you could forget. You will say things you regret. You will think that you are losing your mind. You will feel like you have lost the will to be kind.

You will rage at the small injustices and crumple under the force of the big ones.

You will cry. Even if you’re not really a crier, you will cry.  And if you ARE a crier, your neighbours might want to head for higher ground.

You will find it utterly impossible to imagine a state where you do not feel as awful as you feel right now.

But it will get better. Someone told me it would take two years for me to feel “normal” again. I’d say that was a conservative estimate. It took me two years to feel relatively “together.” “Normal” was a longer time coming. But it did come.

If you haven’t already done so, make a beeline to your closest bookstore and invest in a copy of Rebuilding: When your relationship ends by Dr. Bruce Fisher and Dr. Robert E. Alberti. Or see if there is an agency somewhere in your neck of the woods that offers the “Rebuilding” course that is based on Fisher and Alberti’s work. It will make a difference.

IMG-20130912-00348 (2)Eventually you will build a new life that doesn’t revolve around this enormous hurt. So will your ex. It will take one of you longer than the other to move on in this way, especially if one of you wanted the divorce more than the other. But eventually you will both find new ground to stand on.

The kids will get older and grow into their own lives. So will you.

One day you will find yourself in a conversation with your ex and realize that you are not clenching your jaw that way any more.

One day you will discover that you have let go of  something you thought would anger you for all eternity.

One day your ex will surprise you with a phone call just to wish you well before a big event like an important job interview. Or surgery.

hairOne day you will listen to someone in the throes of new-divorce angst and rage and self doubt, and you will catch yourself thinking “was that me?” And you will appreciate the learning that you did along the journey from there to here.

And you will be grateful for the person you have become along the way.

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12 Responses to Rebuilding

  1. Matt says:

    Thank you.

    Just, thank you.

  2. kodiwilson says:

    Absolutely wonderful. I loved reading this! Please check out my blog as well! 🙂 kodiaileen.wordpress.com

  3. JoAnne says:

    Anna, so very true. This is a wonderful piece on a very difficult emotional time. So well written.
    JoAnne

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  5. Well said:) It’s always so difficult to remember that the way you feel in a single moment is not the way you will always feel.

  6. Caitlin May says:

    This resonated with me… I look back on who I was immediately after my divorce, and now I see I was a little crazy at the time! I feel that in the first year since my divorce I’ve healed well, partly thanks to moving to another city near my family, starting a new career, and finding a new church. Of course, those things were all very difficult while I was lost, soul-searching, angry, rejected (need I go on?) But I am absolutely in a better place now, than I was a year ago. As I posted in reply to your comment on “Must Be This Tall To Ride,” I am much much much stronger.

    I also realize that as much as I think I’ve healed in one year, I’m still naiive to the rest of the healing process.

    Blessings to you. I enjoy your blog! Perfect addition to my morning coffee.
    Caitlin

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  8. Aussa Lorens says:

    I feel this way about some of the madness I have been through in the last 3 years. I look at other people going through the same thing and I’m like “JUST HOLD ON!!!! IT GETS BETTER!”

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